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My deliverance from Satan

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Here is my testimony as I shared it with a dear Sister in the Lord!

Dear Sister in Christ, it gives me great pleasure to share with you what Christ hath done for me. I am sharing this first of all to glorify His matchless Name, and secondly to instill hope in great sinners who might think that they are beyond saving and that God surely cannot save them!

If God can save someone like me, then surely there is hope for the vilest sinner on earth!

My name is Mike and I am Forty three years old. I am married, and am blessed with two sons. I had a Roman Catholic upbringing. My father is a devout Roman Catholic and my mother is a Hindu who is into Transcendental Meditation and Yoga. I am their only child. I had a fascination for the Occult right from my eighth grade and used to spend a lot of time reading occult literature, and by the time I entered college I was a practicing Satanist.

Strangely, my neighborhood was surrounded by Graveyards; a Hindu, Muslim and a Christian Graveyard. And I spent much of my time amongst these graves, even spending nights there, just like the Gadarene demoniac who had his dwelling amongst the tombs. [Mark 5:3]

You may not believe this, but I used to go around exhorting people to quit trusting in Jesus and start worshipping the Devil, and as most Satanists are, I was heavily hooked on Heroin, Marijuana and Alcohol. I also played the Rhythm Guitar for Heavy Metal bands on a local level and spent most of my time listening to this kind of trash. My friend Vincent and I were so involved and engrossed in this that we took great pleasure in burning Bibles and blaspheming God at every given opportunity. We made it a point to dress in black and publicly confessed who it was we were worshipping. Sister, I was really BAD! In fact I got so bad that the Devil didn’t want to hang around with me no more! He thought I’d wreck his reputation!

I have had many real encounters with demons. But in 1986, I had a very horrific, bloodcurdling, eerie encounter with a Principality that changed everything. I cannot really go into the details. But you could say that just as David delivered his lamb literally from the very mouth of the lion, I was literally taken out of the Jaws of Satan. It has been twenty four years since I was delivered, but even now at times I have such horrific nightmares and visits by demons who try to scare me. The Devil does not take betrayal by his servants lightly. I praise God for my Godly wife, Anita, who knows the Lord Jesus and stands by me always.

So God, who is rich in mercy, for His great love wherewith He loved me, even when I was dead in my trespasses and sins, quickened me together with Christ and gloriously delivered me from the powers of darkness even as a ‘firebrand snatched from the burning.’ I want you to know that every time I sing that song “Amazing Grace” I am singing my testimony. I straightaway entered full-time ministry because I very strongly felt His call in my heart and was convinced that this was the will of God for me. As a result of this there was great contention between me and my parents and I literally saw Matthew 10:34-38 come to pass before my very eyes!

[shortly after this my friend Vincent got completely demon possessed and was kept locked up in chains. He even tried to hang himself and immolate himself by fire a few times. When I last saw him he was still in the same condition. God could have justly let me perish with him, for I was in every way worse than him]

Just two months after I got saved, I got arrested by the local county cops for one of my past crimes. Generally my parents would have bailed me out in a day or two. But here I was locked up with no word from them even after four or five days in the ‘lock up’.

It kinda got me very discouraged. Here I was, having been saved from all that filth and witnessing for the Lord and now I wind up in Jail, without anyone to bail me out! Anyway I made good use of the opportunity and witnessed to my cellmates.

But you know what, Sister, after spending nine agonizing days in that cramped cell, on the tenth day I knew in my heart that I would be out before nightfall.  And sure enough, my folks came and bailed me out. My Dad told me that though he had been trying to get me out from the second day I got arrested, it just did not work out.

When I came back home, I went into my bedroom and started questioning the Lord, “ Why, Why did you let me rot in there for Ten days, when you could have pulled me out earlier! Do you still love me”? etc  Just as I was murmuring, I picked up my Bible that was beside me and Cut it open to hear a ‘Word from the Lord’. And guess what verse my eyes fell on?

Here it is –“Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life”! [Rev 2:10]. Sister, I was so spooked that the hairs on my flesh stood up! It wouldn’t have been more real and personal if the Lord had appeared in person and said this. Though this verse was written to the Church of Smyrna 2000 years ago, it was as though it was written specifically for me. Another one of the Lord’s confirmations that He had chosen me to be His own! Shortly after this I forsook all and followed Him!

The people who explained to me the way of salvation were Pentecostals so I was raised with the Pentecostal and Arminian theology for the first few years of my born-again life. Thankfully the church that I worked with were against the idea of Seminaries so I never attended one. I received a lot of training in door to door and street evangelism, and I must confess that the Lord taught me a lot through this. And being an ardent reader, I owe much of my Theological knowledge to my reading and listening to sermons.

But here is an amazing fact, I must mention. I.e. Though I spent my initial years as a Christian amongst Arminians – those who believe that man has to choose God, I somehow was very clearly convinced that I HAD NOT CHOSEN GOD, BUT HE HAD CHOSEN ME! [John 15:16]. I knew in my heart that salvation is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of GOD that showeth mercy! [Romans 9:16]. And seven years later when God led me to some ‘Calvinists’, i.e. those who believe that Salvtion is ALL of GOD, and man has no part nor lot in it, I felt like a lost bird finding its flock! These people held and taught what God had been showing me all the time for those seven years!

Then in 1992 I joined the Foursquare Gospel Church in my hometown Bangalore and taught in their small Bible School and also worked as their ‘Praise and Worship’ leader. This is a branch of the same Foursquare Church founded by Aimee Semple McPherson, and presently pastored by Jack Hayford. The Lord led me to this church for a purpose, for it was here that I met my wife. Shortly after our marriage we left the Four Square to work independently. And the reason we left was due to our utter failure to bring any reform in this church. Even when I was a Pentecostal I could never put up with hypocrisy. I was never satisfied with just preaching against sin from the pulpit, but I would confront people personally and challenge them to forsake their sin. Whenever they gave me a chance to preach from the pulpit I would openly expose Prosperity Preachers and other false teachers by name. This they could not endure, and when we finally left they were glad to see us leave.

After we left Four Square we had to start from scratch. Having a great zeal to preach on the streets I would  go out on the streets, Amusement Parks, Shopping Malls etc and witness to anyone who was willing to listen to me. I would spell out the full cost of discipleship and challenge them to follow Christ. And guess what? After nearly five years of preaching to thousands through personal evangelism we could gather very few people who were willing to pay the price of true discipleship [see Luk 14:25-33]. At times we have had quite an impressive crowd attending our meetings but most of them used to come to see what was in it for them, and when they saw that there was nothing but the cross, self denial and persecution they left.

Then in 1995 the Lord graciously opened our eyes to the error of the Pentecostal doctrine. I must confess that in my nine years as a Pentecostal I have never witnessed a single genuine healing or miracle performed either by me or any other preacher. The Lord also convinced me that the tongues mentioned in the book of Acts were definite languages and not the gibberish that I was taught to utter. I now expose the Pentecostal doctrine as a Heresy.

“The path of the just is as the shining light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect day.” [Prov 4:18] During the end of 1995 the Lord opened mine eyes to the doctrine of Divine Election. I was given a book “Gods wonderful plan of Salvation” written by Harold Camping of Family radio. This book gives a basic introduction to the “Five Points” and was only my initiation to the ‘Reformed World.’ Shortly thereon I found another book in a seconds sale titled – “The Reformed Doctrine of Predestination” by Lorraine Boettner. Unlike the earlier book this one dealt in detail with the ‘Five Points’ and many other aspects of Reformed theology. Sister, I was so taken up with this book that I memorized most of its contents and started preaching the same. Since then I have obtained and read extensively much of the works of John Owen, Edwards, Dr.Gill, Gurnall and even Herman Hoeksema of the PRCA, though I reject his defense of Infant Baptism. In India it is very difficult to find good books on Reformed theology, and the few that are available are not affordable to poor preachers like me. Yet in spite of this the Word is true, that the Master doth “feed His flock like a shepherd!” [Isa 40:11]. The Lord did send across my path many good Reformed books which I providentially found in some second-hand sales on the streets.

But you know what, Sister, as much as I cherished the writings of these ‘Reformed men’, the fame they enjoyed and the multitudes that attended their churches always bothered me. “Woe unto you when all men shall speak well of you, for so did their fathers to the false prophets” [Luk 6:23] has always been the maxim by which I have measured every mans ministry, and somehow the large crowds that these men attracted never seemed to measure up to the Biblical portrait of a true man of God. — “They shall put you out of the synagogues: yea, the time cometh, that whosoever killeth you will think that he doeth God service.” [John 16:2] It was at this time that I came across the writings of A.W. Pink. Here was finally someone who not only preached the doctrines of Grace faithfully but also renounced the existing Christendom of his day as Apostate. In Pink I found a like-minded brother. It grieves my heart that in our day even many who claim to love Pink’s writings and have even made them available on the net are themselves a part of the Great Whore!

Dear Sister, I preach separation from false churches as imperative! Ever since I left the Four Square and started out independently, the Lord has gradually shown me little by little that the existing Christendom of our day is irremediably Apostate. We are living in a day when ‘Christians’ have no regard for sound doctrine or a hunger for true holiness. Even most who prate about their orthodoxy in sound doctrine do not demand holiness from the flock entrusted to them. Most preachers in our day desire to have a ‘ministry’ to show the world what they have accomplished for Christ. But I  know from experience that any preacher who faithfully preaches the whole counsel of God, which means not just preaching the truth but exposing the lie (and the liars who masquerade in Jesus’ name) and demanding separation from the world and all its ideals, standards, styles, fads, fashions, craze and customs etc, I believe such a preacher will be left without a ‘ministry’, for he will soon begin to see that the elect of God who sincerely seek to follow the Lamb by denying self, sin, and the world are only a mere handful. The Lord said “when the Son of man cometh shall He find faith upon the earth?” [Luk 18:8] Except for a few small groups of faithful disciples all over the world, the whole of Christendom will be thoroughly apostate- which is why He says, “Come out of her, my people, lest you share in her sins and lest you receive of her plagues”. [Rev 18:4]

And Sister, this is our message for today in the final hour before His coming. Even way back in his day Brother Pink spake of men’s disregard for the truth! The cry on every side now is “Prophesy not unto us right things, speak unto us smooth things, prophesy deceits.” [Isa 30:10] And this we cannot do! We would rather die than preach the lie! As the apostle said, “We can do nothing against the truth, but for the truth”.[2Cor 13:8] For the most part our work for the Lord in these days when iniquity abounds is very discouraging. But we believe that the Lord has His chosen ones all over the world who are earnestly contending for the faith which was once delivered unto the saints! Oh how glorious the hope and promise that He is coming back soon to take us to be with Him never to be separated again! Hallelujah! Even so come quickly Lord Jesus!

I do not say this to boast, but to let you know my hearts desire and passion is only to proclaim His glorious Word. I have worked with big companies like General Electric (G.E)., Bank of America etc. But God threw me out of them all, because He didn’t call me for that. To expound Scripture comes naturally to me and The Lord GOD hath given me the tongue of the learned, (the gift of the gab?) that I should know how to speak a word in season to him that is weary!

Though I have been preaching since my deliverance, I know in my heart that God has a particular ministry for me. Not necessarily to ‘pastor’ a church, but to feed His sheep! I am waiting for that door to open, and you might say it’s been a long frustrating wait (pardon me). But God’s not finished with me Sister, this I am convinced of; for His gifts and callings are without repentance [Rom 11:29]. In other words, all that the Lord has taught me shall not go in vain but I believe that some day soon God will use me to teach other faithful men who in turn will be able to teach others also.

The Apostle said, ‘Even so hath the Lord ordained that they which preach the gospel should live of the gospel” [1Cor 9:14]. But in the last days that we are now living in, that is not possible. If men like me can find a handful of believers who will agree with us we can be thankful. So though we would rather serve the Lord Fulltime, we are compelled to work secularly and continue to preach repentance toward God.

You can write to me at – mikejeshurun@yahoo.com

Shirly, I knew this The day I was saved, and long before I came close to any ‘Calvinist’! Though many of my fellow Arminans were trying to drill into my head that I had chosen Christ, I knew all along that I HAD NOT CHOSEN HIM, BUT HE HAD CHOSEN ME! I knew all along that it was not of me in the least, but that it was all of God.

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23 Responses to “My deliverance from Satan”

  1. Hi Mike,

    Your testimony affected me. It also left me with many questions. Could you respond to the important ones in the following list? All the quotations in this list are from your testimony.

    Regards,
    Arie

    Questions regarding your testimony:

    1. “It gives me great pleasure to share with you what Christ hath done for me. I am sharing this first of all to glorify His matchless Name, and secondly to instill hope in great sinners who might think that they are beyond saving and that God surely cannot save them!”
    • How often are you aware that you love the Lord Jesus Christ? How deep is this love? When you are by yourself and not preoccupied with secular business, are your thoughts centered primarily on Christ? What do you see in Him?

    2. “I have had many real encounters with demons. But in 1986, I had a very horrific, bloodcurdling, eerie encounter with a Principality that changed everything. I cannot really go into the details. But you could say that just as David delivered his lamb literally from the very mouth of the lion, I was literally taken out of the Jaws of Satan. It has been twenty four years since I was delivered, but even now at times I have such horrific nightmares and visits by demons who try to scare me. The Devil does not take betrayal by his servants lightly.”
    • Have you recognized similar experiences in godly writings of old, such as in Bunyan’s autobiography Grace Abounding?

    3. “So God, who is rich in mercy, for His great love wherewith He loved me, even when I was dead in my trespasses and sins, quickened me together with Christ and gloriously delivered me from the powers of darkness.”
    • Do you understand by this that you were “quickened” when you were still “dead”?

    4. “When I came back home, I went into my bedroom and started questioning the Lord, ‘Why, Why did you let me rot in there for Ten days, when you could have pulled me out earlier! Do you still love me’?”
    • Did you have true love for God and Christ when you questioned Him like this? Can we have true love toward God without being humble before Him and without sensing that we deserve nothing but hell?

    5. “And guess what verse my eyes fell on? Here it is –‘Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life’! [Rev 2:10]. Sister, I was so spooked that the hairs on my flesh stood up! It wouldn’t have been more real and personal if the Lord had appeared in person and said this.”
    • What was more affecting to you in this experience: (1) the remarkable manner in which these words came to you or (2) a revelation of the Lord through these words?

    6. “Then in 1992 I joined the Foursquare Gospel Church in my hometown Bangalore and taught in their small Bible School and also worked as their ‘Praise and Worship’ leader…. the reason we left was due to our utter failure to bring any reform in this church.”
    • This seems to contradict what you stated elsewhere, that God calls His servants to be faithful rather than successful. Did you consider your labour among these people to be “casting pearls before swine”?

    7. “Even when I was a Pentecostal I could never put up with hypocrisy. I was never satisfied with just preaching against sin from the pulpit, but I would confront people personally and challenge them to forsake their sin.”
    • Was this the central message in your preaching to these people? Did you confront them with the challenge to forsake their sin in order that they may realize their inability to forsake it and make them aware of their need for Jesus to reveal Himself to them through His Word and Spirit, which would enable them to truly forsake their sin?

    8. “The Lord also convinced me that the tongues mentioned in the book of Acts were definite languages and not the gibberish that I was taught to utter.”
    • Did you ever rejoice in the Lord while you uttered this “gibberish”?

    9. “Sister, I was so taken up with this book that I memorized most of its contents and started preaching the same. Since then I have obtained and read extensively much of the works of John Owen, Edwards, Dr.Gill, Gurnall and even Herman Hoeksema of the PRCA, though I reject his defense of Infant Baptism.”
    • Do you see an important difference between Hoeksema’s writings and those of Owen, Edwards, Gill, and Gurnall?

    10. “As much as I cherished the writings of these ‘Reformed men’, the fame they enjoyed and the multitudes that attended their churches always bothered me. ‘Woe unto you when all men shall speak well of you, for so did their fathers to the false prophets’ [Luk 6:23] has always been the maxim by which I have measured every mans ministry.”
    • A.W.Pink makes the same observation in his criticism of William Huntington. Of these two men, whose writings do you find more edifying?

    11. “It grieves my heart that in our day even many who claim to love Pink’s writings and have even made them available on the net are themselves a part of the Great Whore!”
    • This “Great Whore” is depicted as having “daughters”: she is said to be the “mother of harlots” (Rev 17:5). Who do these other harlots refer to, in your view? And who is the “Great Whore” herself? In my view, she must refer solely to the Roman Catholic Church, since the godless political powers of Westernized civilization shall one day destroy her (Rev 17:16-17)—after they come to realize that, as the Reformers and Puritans had asserted all along, she is indeed cursed. This worldwide realization, along with the departure of multitudes of disillusioned members from her, is symbolically described in Revelation 18.

    12. “Dear Sister, I preach separation from false churches as imperative! Ever since I left the Four Square and started out independently, the Lord has gradually shown me little by little that the existing Christendom of our day is irremediably Apostate.”
    • Although you believe that the very worst sinners can be saved (“I am sharing this…secondly to instill hope in great sinners who might think that they are beyond saving and that God surely cannot save them!”), and although you believe that today’s Christendom is lost (“apostate”), do you believe that today’s Christendom is irremediably lost? If so, how would you interpret the symbolism in, for example, the last verses of Isaiah 19: “The Egyptians shall know the LORD in that day… the LORD shall smite Egypt…and shall heal them. In that day…the Egyptians shall serve with the Assyrians. In that day…the LORD of hosts shall bless, saying, Blessed be Egypt my people, and Assyria the work of my hands, and Israel mine inheritance”?

    13. And Sister, this is our message for today in the final hour before His coming…. For the most part our work for the Lord in these days when iniquity abounds is very discouraging…. Oh how glorious the hope and promise that He is coming back soon to take us to be with Him never to be separated again! Hallelujah! Even so come quickly Lord Jesus!
    • Do you sometimes long for your death too, as Paul did? Would you still desire that Christ would come bodily with His saints ‘to judge the quick the dead’ if you could believe that today’s apostate Christendom may become part of the ‘world’ that Christ has come to save? Even the Samaritans firmly believed that Christ will one day save the world: “We…know that this is indeed the Christ, the Saviour of the world” (Joh 4:42)—not just parts of the world.

    14. “To expound Scripture comes naturally to me and The Lord GOD hath given me the tongue of the learned, (the gift of the gab?) that I should know how to speak a word in season to him that is weary!”
    • In what sense are they typically weary? Are they weary more from internal strife (from doubts, temptations, feelings of spiritual lethargy, deadness, etc.), or more from external struggles (from persecuting acquaintances, poverty, etc.)?

    15. “Though I have been preaching since my deliverance, I know in my heart that God has a particular ministry for me. Not necessarily to ‘pastor’ a church, but to feed His sheep! I am waiting for that door to open, and you might say it’s been a long frustrating wait (pardon me). But God’s not finished with me Sister, this I am convinced of; for His gifts and callings are without repentance [Rom 11:29].”
    • Do you ever struggle with spiritual doubts yourself?

    16. “In other words, all that the Lord has taught me shall not go in vain but I believe that some day soon God will use me to teach other faithful men who in turn will be able to teach others also.”
    • How can you be so sure that God will bless your teaching in this manner, especially when you seem to believe the end of the world is near?

  2. Dear Arie,

    Thank you for taking the time to read through my whole testimony. It is a sad fact that in our day very few have neither the time nor the interest for such things. And from your questions I perceive that you are a well-read Christian who is no stranger to the doctrines of Sovereign Grace!

    Now to answer your questions. Please bear with me if they are not to your satisfaction. I shall just write the question number since the questions are already available in the above post.

    1. Arie, may I say that your very first question is indeed a very profound one and would take a volume or more to answer. Let me answer the first part by a quote from Spurgeon-
    “There are some professing Christians who can speak of themselves in terms of admiration; but, from my inmost heart, I loathe such speeches more and more every day that I live. Those who talk in such a boastful fashion must be constituted very differently from me. While they are congratulating themselves, I have to lie humbly at the foot of Christ’s Cross, and marvel that I am saved at all, for I know that I am saved. I have to wonder that I do not believe Christ more, and equally wonder that I am privileged to believe in Him at all—to wonder that I do not love Him more, and equally to wonder that I love Him at all—to wonder that I am not holier, and equally to wonder that I have any desire to be holy at all considering what a polluted debased, depraved nature I find still within my soul, notwithstanding all that divine grace has done in me. If God were ever to allow the fountains of the great deeps of depravity to break up in the best man that lives, he would make as bad a devil as the devil himself is. I care nothing for what these boasters say concerning their own perfections; I feel sure that they do not know themselves, or they could not talk as they often do. There is tinder enough in the saint who is nearest to heaven to kindle another hell if God should but permit a spark to fall upon it. In the very best of men there is an infernal and well-nigh infinite depth of depravity. Some Christians never seem to find this out. I almost wish that they might not do so, for it is a painful discovery for anyone to make; but it has the beneficial effect of making us cease from trusting in ourselves, and causing us to glory only in the Lord.”

    When I am by myself and not occupied by secular business, I am usually studying the Word, listening to sermons, or praying. Even when I am doing chores at home that do not need my full attention (like cooking) there is always an Alexander Scourby’s audio KJV Bible playing in the background which I am listening to.
    I see in Christ a love that passes understanding and knowledge. An amazing love which loved a wretch like me.

    2. Bunyan ‘Grace Abounding’ is one of my favorites. Yes I have read of similar experiences in the lives of other saints. In fact during my early years as a Christian when one night I was having these severe attacks, I was reading my Bible when my eyes fell on Job 7:13-15, which assured me that I was not the only one to go through such experiences.

    3. Yes, I was quickened while I was still dead! Unlike many who claim that they were saved by believing the Gospel, I must say that I believed the Gospel because I was saved! One does not believe the Gospel to GET SAVED but believes the Gospel BECAUSE he is saved! “Who hath SAVED US, and (then) CALLED US with an holy calling, not according to our works..etc” [2Tim 1:9]. We must beware of putting the proverbial ‘cart before the horse’.

    4. I have always had a true love for God and Christ since my regeneration, but because of my pride, unbelief and sin I have not been able to show that love. In fact when I was saved one the first strong prayers that I prayed was requesting the Lord to curse anything and everything that would come between our love …..and trust me, He has taken me at my word and answered me accordingly in Providence!

    5. I would say both! I was so thrilled that God was now speaking through His Word! That was the first time I truly heard His voice. It wasn’t an audible voice (NEVER HAS BEEN). But I KNOW His voice! All the Elect know it. It couldn’t have been clearer if the Lord stood next to me and said it verbally! It’s the still small voice of His glorious word full of majesty and power. It blows your mind (pardon the phrase). When you hear something like this no one can convince you that He didn’t speak to you! “Blessed is the people that know the JOYFUL SOUND: they shall walk, O LORD, in the light of Thy countenance.” [Psa 89:15]. There is such a thing as the ‘voice of His Word’ [see Psa 103:20].

    6. Dear Arie, the ‘Church’ is not a museum of finished products, but a hospital for the sick! Yet not altogether the sick who LOVE THEIR DISEASE AND ARE AVERSE TO THE REMEDY, who refuse to be healed. The attitude of the benchwarmers in this Church was – “Prophesy not unto us right things, speak unto us smooth things, prophesy deceits…etc” [Isa 30:10] And THIS we could not do and WILL NOT DO, ‘for we can do nothing against the truth, but for the truth’! [2Cor 13:8].

    7. I must confess that initially I was not fully established in the Total depravity and helplessness of man. It is only after these many years of failures and backslidings that I have been divinely taught that no man stands any longer than he is supported by Divine grace. “Hold Thou me up and I shall be safe” [Psa 119:117] is my daily prayer!

    8. No!

    9. Whatever men may say of Hoeksema, I believe that the man had the GUTS to really take a stand for what he believed! Ironically I was introduced to Hoeksema while I was studying the works of Anthony Hoekema titled ‘Saved by Grace’. Here Hoekema contends for the ‘Well-meant Offer’ of the Gospel and attacks Hoeksema’s denial of it! Even before I read Hoeksema I straightway saw Anthony’s inconsistency! It was a big decision for Hoeksema to break with the CRC but God bless him for taking that stand! You might also want to read J.C. Philpot’s letter of Resignation from the Church of England on my Philpot’s Blog – http://jcphilpot.wordpress.com/category/j-c-philpots-letter-of-resignation/

    10. If I were to be banished on an island with the works of ONLY ONE theologian I could take with me, it would UNDOUBTEDLY BE A.W. PINK. Though I have read Huntington’s ‘Kingdom of Heaven taken by Prayer’ I do not know much about the man himself or his other writings to comment on him.

    11. You are right that the ‘Roman Catholic Church’ is the ‘Great Whore’ of Revelations 17. As for her daughters, I believe they are those WHO REFUSE TO EXPOSE HER AND WARN PEOPLE TO ‘COME OUT OF HER’. Surely no daughter will speak evil of her own mother! Similarly men such as Billy Graham, Bill Bright, J.I. Packer and everyone else who is in agreement with the ‘Evangelicals and Catholics Together’ document leave us with no doubts as to who their Mother is!

    12. By saying that ‘Christendom is irremediably apostate’ I mean that for the most part the visible (by visible I mean Churches with a building and a name on it) Churches and Denominations must necessarily water down the message to keep the membership and the funds flowing. Show me a preacher who zealously preaches the doctrine of Double Predestination and ALSO renounces from the Pulpit – Worldly music, Secular Movies (men and women passionately kissing and fondling other’s spouses in the guise of acting) Christmas, Easter, and warns Christian women to dress right in and out of Church etc …, show me such a preacher and I’ll show you a failure as far as the world standards of ‘ministry’ goes!

    The ‘EGYPTIANS who shall know the Lord in that day’ are Gentiles like you and me, (unless you happen to be a Jew). God’s original plan was to call out a people from every kindred and tongue and nation, which is why even Christ was called out of Egypt! [see Hosea 11:1, Mat 2:14,15]

    13. Not just sometimes, but many times I long to be absent in the body that I might be present with Christ. My wife sometimes laments that ‘I am so Heavenly-minded that I am no earthly good’!
    ‘Christ is the Saviour of the world’ does not mean everybody without exception, but everybody without distinction. Not just the Jews but Gentiles from all across the globe!

    14. The ‘weary’ or the ‘hungry and thirsty’ are those who are made so by God’s sovereign operation. Not all the materially poor or physically sick are thirsting for God. In fact men will seek everything else except God and His Christ to meet their needs. Only those who are called of God are made to see their TRUE POVERTY AND SICKNESS and in God’s time they will be brought to the Savoiur!

    15. Yes I do! In fact, ‘He that has no searchings of soul whether he is in the way, no chilling doubts nor sinking fears ever saddening his spirit, no secret groan nor sigh to have his heart right before God, no solemn midnight cries, no anxious prospects nor gloomy retrospects, no trembling apprehensions how it will be with him at the last, no dread of self-deceit, nor suspicions of Satan’s delusions-he, I say, who glides securely on without these deep exercises, manifests by his VERY EASE that he is NOT in the narrow path that leads to eternal life’. [J.C. Philpot]

    16. This is only a hope that I have, dear Arie! But knowing that many have died in Faith, not having received the promises [see Heb 11:13] I would not be surprised if I too will be one of them. But whether I live or die, I want to be acceptable unto the Lord!

    It’s nice of you to write, Arie. Maybe you could tell me about yourself, your testimony, your Church etc.

    Take care.

    Love
    Mike!

  3. Dear brother,

    I do not know how I found this site~but, what a surprise! I have enjoy reading behind your godly thoughts. Your testimony is special to read. The Lord be with thee, and bless thee in all that you do for his name sake, Red Baker

  4. Thank you Brother Red, it is Brothers like you who make my life worth living on this earth! I shall write to you soon. May the good Lord richly bless you and make you a blessing.
    Love
    Mike!

  5. I sent the link for your testimony to a friend of mine…this was her response…

    “You know what Kitty? I think that maybe all of God’s children are like Michael Jeshurun. Not these people who were born in cookie cutter Christian plastic families, but people who have really known darkness and really understand what God saved them from. The poor in spirit. You know? I mean I’ve only met a few people who I really believe love Jesus and know how much His Saving Grace really means and all of them have been to the darkest places in their lives. Look at how Jesus brought you back from death Kitty. Look at how much you couldn’t stand the hurt of this world and only wanted to be with Him. Look how He kept you and how you brought His light back into this world with you to shine on me and so many people. I would be so lost without you. I mean that. I could still be trying to roll around in the crazy church! LOL

    Just like me. I was bad, bad, bad. I was punk rock to the core. I was drunk every day that I was a teenager. I wore black fishnets, short plaid skirts, doc martins and had a mo-hawk. I hung out in night clubs in D.C. with some serious crazy, demonic people. But, I wasn’t a punk because of my outsides, I was a FTW punk who wouldn’t conform to anything the status quo would tell me. I didn’t trust the BS because I thought for myself. Well, I haven’t changed. I still have that punk attitude for Jesus. I am not buying what the plastic preachers are selling. I have read the Bible for myself and it doesn’t say anything like what you hear in church. I have a bad attitude too Kitty. I am really, really angry at church and religion right now. That’s why Jesus made me like I was when I was younger. So I would keep that attitude of thinking for myself. He took my darkness and turned into gift from Him!!

    I know what Jesus did for me and I will never put anything in front of that. No money, no glory, no nothing. Cause I am still nothing but dirt, but what Jesus does for me is the only thing that shines. He made us His children! He saved us from all the things in this dirty, selfish, greedy, hateful world. There is nothing that can change that fact. If these Ivory Tower guys really put Jesus before glory, prestige, money, greed, power…they might be on the road to Mercy and Salvation too, but they never knew Him to start with. Cause if they did, those things could never have gotten in the way. You can’t lose Jesus once He’s plucked you up. They didn’t lose Him, they never knew Him.

    I’m not ready to get back on the blogs just yet. I’m still trying to figure out where my voice is since this last round of wolves were exposed. I am still very angry and mistrustful. I was thinking that when I do get back, I am going to have a let’s vent day, where we can just let it all out, what is making us have such bad attitudes. Then, once we get it out, we can see what Jesus recommends! Cause he’s got an answer for every upset. There is nothing new under the sun. He’s seen the worst of it and He tells us how to deal with it.

    We are always going to be black sheep to the outside, but white as snow to the One that matters! Only by His Grace and Mercy!

    Alright, hittin’ the hay.

    Sweet dreams Sunflower. I think about you and pray for you every day too, Dawn. You are always in my heart.”

  6. That was a very inspiring testimony, Dawn. I read it twice over. Praise God for your friend and the deliverance and wisdom God has given her. 

    She said -“If these Ivory Tower guys really put Jesus before glory, prestige, money, greed, power…they might be on the road to Mercy and Salvation too, but they never knew Him to start with. Cause if they did, those things could never have gotten in the way. You can’t lose Jesus once He’s plucked you up. They didn’t lose Him, they never knew Him”. 

    I’d say that’s pretty deep for someone coming from a Punk Rock background. Goes to show that God picks some of the most unlikely candidates and teaches them some pretty heavy truths concerning Him and His kingdom. As He said -“I thank Thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that Thou hast hid these things from the wise and prudent, and hast revealed them unto babes: even so, Father; for so it seemed good in Thy sight” [Luk 10:21]. 

    As I said on one of your posts -‘Best paid pastors’ spiritual wisdom does not come from a seminary or Bible college. It comes from knowing the Lord and spending time with Him! 
    “Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were unlearned and ignorant men, they marvelled; and they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Jesus” [Acts 4:13]

    Dawn, your friend also mentioned something about bringing YOU back from death. I think she meant your testimony. By the way, if you have your personal testimony written somewhere, I’d love to read it as well. The testimony of one saint is in no way greater than another’s, for it is all the testimony of leprous sinners saved by God’s amazing grace. It takes an equal amount of resurrection power to quicken a moral church going Pharisee as it does a hard core Satanist! As the Apostle asks – “What then? are we better than they? No, in no wise: . . for we have proved, both Jews and Gentiles that they are all under sin”! [Rom 3:9]

    So if you have your testimony already written out please send it to me. If you feel it is too personal to be posted on a blog you can send it to my personal email -mikejeshurun@yahoo.com

    You have been a great encouragement to me dear Dawn. I thank God for you. Keep up the good work.

    Love
    Mike!

  7. I sent you my testimony via your email.

  8. Mike, I just discovered your blog, by-way-of a ping. Please check out my blog and especially my blogroll. Our pastors and our church are different from those you mention. You have the same calling as ours.
    A.W. Pink’s The Sovereignty of God (Classic Edition) is my favorite.
    I was involved in T.M. when I was younger, but the Lord brought me out.
    The Two Babylons was added to my bookshelf 30 years ago.
    In His Grace,
    (Another Sister in Christ) ~ Fran

  9. Thank you for your encouragement, dear Frances. I will check out your blog and later write to you.
    Love
    Mike!

    P.S. Pink’s Sovereignty of God is my favourite too.

  10. Dearest Michael,

    Such an inspiring account and I can honestly say that I have never read outside of Scripture a more powerful testimony than this one….I am amazed that you made it out of your youth alive given your parents’ faiths as well as your occultism….there is no escaping God when you are an elect and He surely arrested you in the Spirit as he did Saul/Paul and made you willing in that day. I am so delighted to be able to call you a brother and to come to know you my friend. Thank God you are now monergistic in your soteriology.

  11. Thank you so much for your encouraging commment, Sister Shirly. I am so blessed to have friends like you. I am truly not worthy of such love. I believe that all the true children of God will sooner or later see the Monergistic truth of their salvation. As the Psalmist said, “Not unto us, O LORD, not unto us, but unto Thy name give glory, for Thy mercy, and for Thy truth’s sake”! [Psalm 115:1]

  12. Swung by just to read once again and absorb some more….the year you were regenerated I was beading Denver a guitar strap….and it was still four years before I would hear live preaching from my future pastor. So long ago now.

    • Oh yeah, I remember Denver all right. Great singer and one of my favorites. Come to think of it, I used sing that song “Counrty roads take me home” with my guitar and hardly was aware that someday soon the Lord would Indeed “take me home’ after all ! Not to ‘West Virginia’ but to my Father’s house – the Church of the Living God!

      Now I can sing, Denver’s other famous song “Hey, it’s good to be back home again”!

      I never dreamnt in my wildest dreams that some sweet girl who beaded Denver a guitar strap would someday be my loving Sister in Christ! Oh the wondrous works of God! “When Thou didst terrible things which we looked not for”! [Isa 64:3]. We serve an awesome God!

      • And how I would like to play my old guitars like you are able and to play those songs but alas my fingers did about bleed and I realized it was not providence for me to play a stringed instrument. Some of us have gifts that the other just never will but God always knows best and there are no accidents with God we know.

  13. Raining outside in this country and it is mid afternoon but I know it is evening there and the dark has fallen; unless there happens to be a full moon over India which regrettably I doubt there is tonight. Goodnight Michael.

  14. Mike, WOW!!! Now that’s a testimony…I too have been involved in the occult, and it’s lure I have to admit I still have a fight with in weaken times, but the Lord delivered me out of the darkness, and like you, started my journey in the wilderness trying to find a church, a preacher who would help me along my way. This was not to happen, and that was a good thing for me, because that’s when the Lord took a hold of me, sat me down day after day, and fed me in His Word. Oh yes, God was faithful to this elect who belongs to Him…and I will be eternally grateful.

    Thank you so much for sharing your testimony Mike. It was powerful, cuts to the heart, and a beautiful story with a happy ending, but then again….the happiest ending is when we see Him face to face my friend….

    Eternally His…..Lorraine

  15. all I can say…..is I am near tears at your testimony brother and at the comments below it. Glory to God in the Highest!! Seriously tears of joy!

  16. So blessed by your testimony brother! You and my sister in Christ and new friend Berna Deene Saylor are answers to my prayers! I have been crying out to God for very specific direction and clarification of what I believe I know to be true in my spirit. There are sooooo many voices in the wind and soooo many wolves in sheep’s clothing. I do not want to be one who doubts or who’s faith is tossed about like the waves in the sea! I used to pray that I would not be deceived by men but God impressed upon me to pray that I would not deceive MYSELF! I love you dear brother. Keep pressing on!

    • Aaww such encouraging words! Thank you dear Sister. It is always a blessing when God brings into your life the sheep for whom He laid down His life. We may not know each other well and a thousand miles may separate us physically, but the bond we share cannot be described in words. We are His body . . . of His flesh and of His bones . . . and the same blood runs in our veins – the blood of Christ! Stay in touch and write when time permits. I am always there for you. Thy Brother for whom Christ died,
      Mike!

  17. PRAISEBE TO THE LORD JESUS CHRIST I AM NOT SURE HOW I GOT HERE BUT WAS LOOKING FOR FALSE CHURCHES.I AT TIMES GROW WEARY WHERE ARE THE TRUE FOLLOWERS OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST?MOST PROFESSING FOLLOWERS OF JESUS CHRIST STILL LOVE THE WORLD THEY DO THE SAME THINGS DEAD WICKED SINNERS DO.WHERE IS THE HOLY LIFE FOR WITHOUT HOLINESS NOONE WILL SEE THE LORD.EVEN MY HUSBAND TELLS ME THESE THINGS ARE MY OPINION ‘FOOTBALL,HALF NAKED WOMEN PEOPLE DAMAGING EACH OTHERS BODY WHILE PEOPLE ARE GOING TO HELL.I MUST FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT TAKE A STAND EVEN IF I STAND ALONE I MUST LIVE A HOLY LIFE MAKE DISCIPLES AND HELP THE POOR I DO NOT KNOW ANYBODY NO HUMAN BEING WHO WANTS TO LIVE FOR CHRIST,MAKE DISCIPLES AND HELP THE POOR.I WAS A HYPOCRITE IN THE BAPTIST CHURCH FOR ALMOST 28 YEARS BUT PRAISE BE TO GOD 3 AGO YEARS THE HOLY SPIRIT OF THE LIVING GOD RAISED ME FROM THE DEAD HE GAVE ME TRUE REPENTANCE AND REAL FAITH JESUS CHRIST SUFFERED THE WRATH THE HELL THAT I DESERVE PRAISE GOD FOR HIS MERCY AND GRACE I WILL NOT BACK DOWN FROM PREACHERS SPREADING THE FALSE GOSPEL THEY WILL ONE DAY GIVE AN ACCOUNT OF THEIR LIVES AND THE MANY PEOPLE THEY HAVE DAMNED.I PRAY THAT YOU ARE A TRUE FOLLOWER OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST MANY HOMELESS PEOPLE AS WELL AS EVERYBODY I SHARDAUGHTERE THE GOSPEL WITH DAILY SAY THEY ARE BUT THEIR LIVES PROVE THEIR UNBELIEF I JUST CAN NOT BE LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE JESUS HAS MADE ME A NEW CREATION 2 CORINTHIANS 5;17 I REALLY LOVE JESUS CHRIST MORE THAN MY HUSBAND OF 32 YEARS MY SON MY GRANDDAUGHTER EVEN MY OWN LIFE .JESUS CHRIST TELLS US TO COUNT THE COST LUKE 9;23 IT COST JESUS EVERYTHING HIS LIFE AND IT WILL COST TRUE DISCIPLES THEIR LIVES I TELL PEOPLE JESUS PROMISES YOU A CROSS TO CARRY DAILY SUFFERING AND TRIALS WE MUST REMEMBER MOST PEOPLE HATED JESUS AND IF YOU LIVE GODLY THEY WILL HATE YOU.MY HUSBAND AND I CANNOT FIND A TRUE CHURCH MY HUSBAND IS WILLING TO ACCEPT THINGS THAT THE HOLY SPIRIT WILL NOT LET ME TOLERATE. SIN IS SIN AND GOD IS HOLY HE HATES SIN.. PLEASE MAYBE YOUR WIFE COULD E MAIL rickysauls@att.net I could use some rebuke and encouragement I know that GOD IS SOVEREIGN AND HE PUT ME ON THIS SITE.I DO NOT KNOW ANY TRUE BELIEVERS PLEASE HELP PLEASE PRAY FOR ME JESUS CHRIST IS ENOUGH I THINK SOMETIMES HOW DID THE APOSTLE PAUL FEEL WHEN DEMAS AND OTHERS ABANDONED HIM .HALLULUIAH ALL I HAVE IS JESUS CHRIST HE IS MY LORD AND MASTER I NOW BELONG TO JESUS CHRIST MAY I WALK WORTHY.I MUST CONTINUE DOWN THE NARROW PATH PRESSING TOWARD THE PRIZE JESUS CHRIST IS WORTHY HE IS GOD.MY NAME IS PAULA SAULS AND I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.

    • Dear Sister Paula, please pardon my late response. I haven’t been keeping too well. Thank you so much for your kind words and for sharing all that you did. Would you please be kind enough to write to my gmail id from henceforth. I would like to hear your testimony and all that the Lord has done for you.

      My gmail id is – mikejeshurun@gmail.com

      Love
      Mike!

  18. Love yr testimony nd love the part where u expose false pastors who dwell on properity to gain followers


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